1. |
Black Moon
04:08
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Empty as Russian Nesting Dolls
Desperate as Annie Edson Taylor, tumbling over Niagara Falls
Dreaming of August in the middle of June
Wishing for the fall when everything's in bloom
And I, I've been orbiting a black moon
Not coming back any time soon
I've been circling. Yeah, I've been spinning around
Built a home in the lost and found
I've been waiting
Too torn apart to really say: “Are you okay?” … Yeah, I am fine
And it feels like I've been phoning it in
Swimming through the benzodiazepines
And I couldn't outrun what I've always been
Feels like I've been phoning this in
Maybe I just need a fresh start
Well if you crack my ribs, you could hold my heart
I've been circling. Yeah, I've been spinning around
Built a home in the lost and found
I've been waiting
Too torn apart to really say: “Are you okay?” … Oh, I am fine
I feel out of body
A copy of a copy
I am changing, I am changed
Torn apart and rearranged
Maybe I look the same
But I am changing, I am changed
I am changing, I am changed
I am changing, I am changed
Torn apart. Rearranged
Maybe I look the same
But, I am changing, I am changed
You ask if I'm okay
Too torn apart to really say
I am changing, I am changed
Maybe I look the same
Maybe I look the same
Maybe I look the same
Maybe I look the same
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2. |
Don't Worry, Emily
04:30
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And towards the end, couldn’t catch my breath
I'd catch myself looking backwards
Back before the diagnosis
Before we ran out of answers
We'd stage our Sundays in defiance of Mondays
Day drinking with all our friends
Sometimes I'd sit and think about you
Simply wearing a sun dress
And there were blasts of belly laughs
What I wouldn't give to have all that back
Don't worry, Em, nothing truly goes missing, no one's ever gone
When you die the bonfires keep burning
They burn on both horizons like a never-ending dawn
Don't worry, Em, our whole lives we got it all wrong:
There’s no beginning or end
When you die they put you on a white horse
That you ride eternal out on the Navajo wind …. Don't worry, Em
And there were blasts of belly laughs
What I wouldn't give to have all that back
Don't worry, Em, nothing truly goes missing, no one's ever gone
When you die the bonfires keep burning
They burn on both horizons like a never-ending dawn
Don't worry, Em, our whole lives we got it all wrong:
There’s no beginning or end
When you die they put you on a white horse
That you ride eternal out on the Navajo wind … Don't worry, Em
You and I, we'll glide through this glittering world together, fully entwined
You see, Em, we live on forever in the hearts of the ones we've left behind
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3. |
Thick as Thieves
02:57
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You and I, we were once thick as thieves
Blood brothers, direct descendants of Adam and Eve
You and I, stumbling through those hot Texas nights
Reckless and young, just spoiling for a fight
You can be Steve McQueen
And I'll be Frank Sinatra
Mad men, iconic laughs
Drinking tonic and vodkas ... yeah yeah
You and I, we would wake up surrounded, by empties and fallen soldiers
Can barely recall those younger years ... now that I'm older
There was a time, when I loved you like my kin
Learned my lesson the hard way:
Pride and envy they're the worst of the seven sins
You can be Steve McQueen
And I'll be Frank Sinatra
Mad men, iconic laughs
Drinking tonic and vodkas
I thought you'd be Steve McQueen
And I'd be Frank Sinatra
We were boys playing pretend
Drinking our tonic and vodkas ... yeah yeah
You can be Steve McQueen
And I'll be Frank Sinatra
Mad men, iconic laughs
Drinking tonic and vodkas ... yeah yeah
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4. |
Lodgepole Pines
04:09
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And I’m not sure you were ever any good for me
But I guess you’re what I needed at the time
Like a stone throne across a surface
I’d gone too far out on my own
From the juniper desert to the lodgepole pines
Been wandering around, trying to find
Some kind of connection
Some kind of truth, buried in sediment
My trajectory receding
And gravity pulls
And always impedes me
I’d gone too far out on my own
My heart is closed for restoration
From the juniper desert to the lodgepole pines
Been wandering around, trying to find
Some kind of meaning, some kind of connection
Some kind of truth, buried in sediment
Fossilized, captured in time
And some say we find everything that we seek
And if that’s true then I am the winter wind
I’m the Amarillo sky
My heart is closed for restoration
Just give me some time
Let the cosmonauts float from station to station
And I’ll remain here gravity bound
Watching their contrails slowly … disappear
Disciplined, the traffic engineers study our daily patterns
There was a fire in the canyon, now all the cavemen have lanterns
Euclid provided mankind the golden ratio, now everything’s predictable
Blood on our hands, we’ve murdered the mystical
And if you can’t prove it, it doesn’t exist
Yet in fits and starts, light fights its way to the jungle floor
Vines growing in spite of the darkness
CHLOROPHIL! AND THE GREEN EYES OF THE JAGUAR
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5. |
Impossibly Perfect
02:56
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Tried to take in the moment
Watched the mountains and the sky
Painted pink by the rising sun
You said nothing's quite as fun as love once begun
But it'll fade and - once it's done it's done
There are parts of your body
I find impossibly perfect
The nape of your neck
Or your arms outstretched
Can't catch my breath ... I become transfixed
Tried to take in the moment
I was holding your hand
You were thinking of letting me go
Souvenirs and trinkets
That's all we'll be left with
I know you loved me once - a long time ago
There are parts of your body
I find impossibly perfect
The nape of your neck
Or your arms outstretched
Can't catch my breath ... I become transfixed
There are parts of your body
I find impossibly perfect
The nape of your neck
Or your arms outstretched
Can't catch my breath ... I become transfixed
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6. |
Little Lives
03:35
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I surround myself with the young. The impressionable.
I'm a leper leaching off their youth and innocence
And all the pharmacies have failed us
Were we ghosted by God, when we nailed him up?
I'm a weak little thing, all ego, no heart
We all live little lives, little lies.
Remain inside, stay small
Hope to survive, pray to survive
Doc says I'm clinically depressed
Give and take till there's nothing left
Seems I no longer exist
I drift away in warm water and slit wrists
I'm a weak little thing, all ego, no heart
Lover lie to me (Honey there's meaning)
Lover lie to me (Honey there's meaning)
Lover lie to me (We're lucky to be breathing)
Lover lie to me (I will lie)
Lover lie to me (I will lie)
Lover lie to me
Lover lie
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7. |
Sugar Sweet
03:54
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Doctors stuck me with needles in utero
I developed trust issues and my therapist finds this apropos
So I keep my guard up, I’ve always got a stone to throw
Somehow I let you in and now I can’t let you go
And you think you know me but I’m a charlatan
I’m non-partisan - Feigning affectation I blend right in
White in the winter and changing with the seasons I’m a ptarmigan
I got a new therapist and a new mantra and it goes like:
I can’t fix this. I can’t fix this. I can’t fix this.
I can’t
And they say time’s fun when you’re having flies
Oh no it feels like I’m stumbling, and I forgot my lines
And the truth is I’m happy to see you (you’re lying)
These are tears of joy falling from my eyes (YOU’RE LYING)
Sweet lucidity speak to me
My thoughts are broken and filled with ellipsis
Feels like I’m sinking and swimming with the fishes
“Know thyself”, mumbles the solipsist
I got a new therapist and a new mantra and it goes like:
I can’t fix this. I can’t fix this. I can’t fix this.
I can’t
I feel free, I feel empty
I’m a parade, I’m the confetti
I … I’m kinda floating down
I want a master to guide me
I’m a student driver on killing spree
I am howling out the moonroof like a banshee
On a spirit quest
I’m serpent at the base of a Judas tree
Surrounded by a swarm of killer bees
I’m a lawyer with his law degree
I’m a skipper drinking liquor out on the Aegean sea
Yeah, I’m a virgin unzipping his zipper
And I – I am sugar sweet
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8. |
I'm Alive
04:04
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Every now and then I remind myself
Just to stay right here
In the moment, fully present
I’m trying not to disappear
I’m gonna let the record state:
I’m trying to keep my head on straight
And I hereby done with sadness
I burned it all up into ashes
I’m alive. I’m alive.
I’m alive and I am breathing
I’m alive. I’m alive.
I’m alive and I am finally feeling
Things for the first time
Every now and then I remind myself
Just to stay right here
In the moment, fully present
I promise not to disappear
I can hear my heartbeat beating
Born again, I’ve started teething
Childlike in wide-eyed wonder
I let the water pull me under
I’m alive. I’m alive.
I’m alive and I am finally feeling
Things for the first time
I’m alive. I’m alive.
I’m alive and I am breathing
I’m alive. I’m alive.
I’m alive and I am finally feeling
Things for the first time
I’m alive. I’m alive.
I’m alive and I am breathing
I’m alive. I’m alive.
I’m alive and I am finally feeling
Things for the first time … in a long time
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9. |
Tomahawk Tongues
03:54
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Serpent tongues sliding through bone-bleached teeth
Luciferous lies poisoning the air we breathe
Narcotics laced with our mother’s milk
So we root for ruin and verticillium wilt
This is a landslide now, being swallowed whole
Buried and buzzed
Aluminum breath at the end of the world
Men wearing masks, men wearing gloves
Chorus
It’s a web // It’s a trap // there’s a catch // They’re listening they can hear you
It’s a web // It’s a trap // there’s a catch // Like birds on a wire-tapped
I got restless legs – been kicking in my sleep
I’m having dragon dreams – with spiders on my feet
Dystopian men talk with tomahawk tongues
They gotta walk their walk, gonna their drums
Men with guns surround the feeder at dusk
Camouflaged, concealed by the brush
They’re coming with needles for knives
There’s blood in the sand, stinging our eyes
Chorus
Outro
I don’t care what you say, they’re watching our every move
Drones in every window, patrolling the skies
And the words they speak sound so sweet
But don’t believe ‘em … they’re all liars
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10. |
Randy the Hammer
04:27
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My name is Randall Francis Hobbs
I was born in the 60s in the upper mid-west
Barely old enough to recall the Kent State protests
As a teen, I was awkward, I was shy
Made decent grades, but went mostly unnoticed through junior high
Moved out to California in the 80s
Was hoping to get into the movies
My acting career fizzled, but there were different moves to be made
I was desperate. I was lonely. I was always the bridesmaid.
I learned to get paid
Randy
Randy the Hammer
Video star
King of the 80s
Randy the Hammer
And yes, it's true, there were parties, there were angels, there was dust
By any set of standards, it was a sordid scene of distrust
I'm often asked if I have regrets
And without doubt poor choices were made
I realized your idiosyncrasies define you
Your bad habits aren't really habits after all
They’re just funhouse mirrors on a shrinking set of walls
This isn't a phase, it's simply your life
The older we get the more we reflect
This is permanent.
Randy
Randy the Hammer
Video star
King of the 80s
Randy the Hammer
Randy the Hammer
Randy the Hammer
Randy the Hammer …
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11. |
White Noise
03:59
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I stood listening to the silence. The kind that stands its ground.
The landscapist's lament. Loose leaves a silent sound.
White noise. Dead air. Suburban despair.
A wasteland, appears. The Savior's cross is bare.
So let the days be aimless. So let the seasons drift.
Empty living east of Eden. Odds and evens ‘round our wrists.
So let the days be aimless. So let the seasons drift.
See the sun it also rises, and the iceberg's mostly missed.
Flower girls laying down silver pedals.
Solemn soldiers laid out in brass medals.
We're trading tongues now like the Phoenicians.
Bartering blind faith in the age of reason.
SO THIS IS IT! Middle aged now and thinning.
Whatever this is, well it sure isn't winning.
I've added all of the appropriate buzz words.
But darling I know that something's gone missing.
It's gone MISSING!!
We selected a circuitous path. The one with the most resistance.
The empire we built was anything but instant.
Our death was categorized as a suspicious omission.
Leftovers and remainders, casualties of long division.
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12. |
Broken Arrow
02:17
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Spent a decade drinking at a thinking place
I was keeping up with Lou, at a younger man’s pace
Figured I’d bend never thought I’d break
These choices I made, oh, they keep me awake
Stalking the bars at closing time
I was cold calling a hookup with desperate eyes
Felt like the blind calling out to the blind
Trying to find a connection
And every day I’m running with knives
And every night I’m baking poison pies
Spent a decade drinking at this thinking place
Now I can’t keep up, stumbling out of the gates
I’m an educated man, man, I’ve got a master’s degree
Did a semester abroad on the Aegean Sea
But after the after party
I always feel lost and vaguely sorry
Everything rounded, sullied and slurred
Everything outlined, abstracted and blurred
And every day I’m running with knives
And every night I’m baking poison pies
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13. |
Hecho en Mexico
02:50
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Figured by this age
I'd have things figured out
A recent review of my actions
Magnified my doubts
These days I feel windblown
A silhouette, carved from stone
A man most would consider
Fully grown ... fully grown
I'm more like an echo though
A cheap toy, Hecho en Mexico
A child's kaleidoscope
Empty inside and gutted of hope
Now we're bouncing off each other like competing out-of-offices replies
Mirrors facing one another. Enemies under the guise of allies
Let's bury the coffins, rewind the clocks
Course correct, change my stripes and all the locks
Straitjackets and parlor pursuits
Treasure chests and pirate’s loot
All my virgin beliefs got whittled down
It's funny how hard truths get softened
Piss and vinegar of my untamed youth
I shot him dead and I don't think about him all that often
I'm more like an echo though
A cheap toy, Hecho en Mexico
A child's kaleidoscope
Empty inside and gutted of hope
I’m more like an echo though
Hecho en Mexico … …
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14. |
Collapse
05:52
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I met K in a dark bar, on a dark night
See I was in a dark place
She was brilliant, she was bright
Desperate for connection, or newfound affections
Gossamer reflections, my lessons … I always forget them
Broken ribs
Torn apart
But I got heart
The lumens and soft light
Deer in the headlights
I’ll take what I want now
I’ll learn what I’m made of
A lonesome connection, digital and fragile
We’re the saddest of animals
Even our Gods are fallible
There’s ice in the asphalt
Expands and collapses
Promises broken, ashes to ashes
There’s ice in the asphalt
Expands and collapses
Promises broken, ashes to ashes
Loving her is like catching a knife
Loving me is like taking lives
The sordid tales of husbands and wives
The separation of Adam
The splitting of atoms
The chasm we’ve created
Isolated … we’re phantoms
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