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The Palace Thief
03:26
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Standing eight count, but I ain't down yet
Like Gillette, I never let 'em see me sweat
I'm a distinguished liar, but I mostly conspire
Even in my Sunday best
But a cup of tea, on a rainy day
Helps to keep those claws at bay
I feel well rested, but I'm restless
Careless and selfish
How'd I let you go?
She says I'm too hard on myself
And nothing in life is pass or fail
She says I'm too hard on myself
The carpenter of my own jail
She says I'm too hard on myself
And nothing in life is pass or fail
The door was always open
Just give yourself some fucking grace
... Indian Summer
Wearing t-shirts in October
Stumble through the Embarcadero sun
And those narrow streets up on North Beach
There were boats in the bay
And people in the cafes, yeah
I can see you now like a portrait
Standing in the sun, looking gorgeous
Those happy times make for somber memories
This is a dream, let me lie lost in reverie ...
I have a hard time letting shit go
And I don't feel so well
I have a hard time letting my shit go
And I don't feel so well now, I don't feel so well these days
She says I'm too hard on myself
And nothing in life is pass or fail
She says I'm too hard on myself
The carpenter of my own jail
She says I'm too hard on myself
And nothing in life is pass or fail
The door was always open
Just give yourself some fucking grace ...
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2. |
Every Little Light
03:17
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Geoffrey, I'm not sure I'll make it through another winter
It's not that I don't love you. It's not that I'm a quitter
Time has a way of making the years grow thinner
It's a lovely little cycle, all that blooms must wither
And so it is
And soooo it is
Every little light goes off in the distance
And so it is
And soooo it is
Every little light goes off
It was all such a senseless chase - the golden fleece
Made peace with the broken hands on this old timeless gold timepiece
Viens ma dormeuse, dans la berceuse
I want to leave this world happy, no need to call the police
Well, I'm a creature
I've got my comforts
Kept my enemies close
There was safety in numbers
They say what doesn't kill you, only makes you tougher
Well Geoffrey, I'm tough motherfucker
Burning kinda bright tonight
Burning kinda bright
And so it is
And soooo it is
Every little light goes off in the distance
And so it is
And soooo it is
Every little light goes off
Burning kinda bright tonight
Burning kinda bright
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3. |
Slings and Arrows
03:46
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We were standing around just smoking
Under the black-tie night sky
Moonlit and talking shit
Oblivious as Cassiopeia passed us by
And the nighttime heat hung around
Like an uninvited party guest
You looked handsome, but exhausted
I adjusted the boutonniere on your jacket breast
Michael, you don't have wings
And all your slings and arrows of misfortune
Are distortions:
Of truth - and life - and love
Our driver drove us back home from the wedding
We held hands, but you seemed detached
I was buzzed and in need of reassurance
You were staring out the window, caught in the past
And my thoughts drift like dust through the galaxy
I'm on your side, even through tragedy
Michael, what is it you’re chasing?
Felicity is free, it’s yours for the taking
Michael, you don't have wings!
And all your slings and arrows of misfortune
Are distortions:
Of truth - and life - and love
Michael, you don't have wings!
And all your slings and arrows of misfortune
Are distortions:
Of truth - and life - and love
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4. |
Most Likely to Succeed
04:01
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Most likely to succeed, 1996.
Thumbing through my yearbook
My friends back then were mostly dicks
Been a lotta twists - been a lotta turns
Bridges burned as the decades churned
Zigging and zagging from our early 20’s
Telling stories of former glories
Hanging on stories, the same old stories
How’d we become so goddamn boring?
Na-na-na-na-na
Nursing a beer, I ask you to doctor me up
Feigning how feeble I was, too weak to lift my cup
I once thought content was the dirtiest word in the book
Now it’s all I seek, it’s the worm on my hook
I need a new mantra, some kind of coda
A master to guide me, my very own Yoda
Some universal truth, the advice you bestow
The odds of me taking, are woefully low
I’m trying to be more selfless and carefree
Nothing revolves ‘round me
I’m trying to be more selfless and carefree
I’m nobody
Na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na
I’m nobody
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5. |
Ulalume
06:08
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At an early age I went through a Poe phase
Friends & family still call me Ulalume, but you can call me June
These days I'm a bit of a nervous wreck
I got a tongue for biting & hands for writing some bad, bad checks
Pop some pills; chase the sun; run, run, run
Until the whole web has been spun, spun, spun
Steady weaved my way through and endless run of days
Spent most of my childhood chasing the best ways to receive praise
I could use a place to crash, but I'd settle for some cash
Burned so many bridges I erased the past
Spent a decade or two floating through
Albuquerque, Sacramento, Lake Havasu
Men coming & going, gravitating & flowing
Like cattle to the Karasu
Still baby-faced but these grays betray a somber senescence
Aging isn't the waiving of a white flag, it's an acquiescence
My late Pa, rest his soul,
Where he lies I'll never know
He had a simple mantra
An American take on that 'ol Buddhist tantra:
‘Here for a good time, not a long time
The sun is yours. But the moon is mine’
‘Here for a good time, not a long time
The sun is yours. But the moon is mine’
Hear the angels sing
*The skies they were ashen and sober
The leaves they were crisped and seared
It was night in the lonesome October
Of my most immemorial year*
*Adapted from the poem, Ulalume, by Edgar Allen Poe
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6. |
Tiny Flashes
03:34
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How’d I end up in this liminal state?
It’s a heavy, a hollow, weightless place
49 days and then what?
49 days and then what?
If Hesperus is Phosphorus
What does that mean for the rest of us?
Whoa, I’m sick of channel-surfing through these memories
I need to let it be
The sun’s either rising or falling
Morning into evening, always repeating
It’s all just a matter of timing
Living is dying. Son don’t you know?
Am I standing at the threshold, but can’t let go?
See the past in tiny flashes:
- The cedar elms at dawn
- Her still-in-bed sleepy yawn
- A child in my arms
Venus, can you ground me?
I feel untethered
Weightless as weather, like January snow
I’m having trouble letting go
The sun’s either rising or falling
Morning into evening, always repeating
It’s all just a matter of timing
Living is dying. Son don’t you know?
I’m holding on, holding on, holding on …
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7. |
No Coda
03:25
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Whatever you’re chasing
Just let it go
There’s rarely resolution
So let it go
You left me with no coda
Silent as the Sioux
Suffering through the Dakotas
Thought I knew ya
But no one could ever know ya
And you always said that you can’t con a conman
Your delivery it was always so Goddamn deadpan
Well Goddamn
Whatever you’re chasing
Just let it go
There’s rarely resolution
So let it go
I’ll never understand the ending
There’s too many fences in need of mending
And you had a tattoo that said “Welcome”
Over your left breast
You were an open door, a disheveled guest
So this is it: no closing remark or passage
No uttered adage … just empty space
Is it black or white?
Is it fight or flight?
The cougar, the coyote at night
Is it black or white?
Is it fight or flight?
The cougar, the coyote at night
All those army men, in the trenches thin
Talking slowly and smoking back when
All those army men, in the trenches thin
Talking slowly and smoking back when
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It’s not just that I miss you
Now it feels like something’s missing
And there’s no amount of wishing
That could fix things
The only thing left, left to fix is me
Goddamn
I’m not sure I believe in ghosts
Since you’ve been gone, I talk to you the most
Not sure I believe in ghosts
But now that you’re gone, I talk to you the most
And when I think of you, it’s always back when you were younger
Wild eyed and fully alive, and unencumbered
And now that I believe in ghosts, I talk to you the most
And now that you’re gone … everything is post
(Swept away) Heavenly Father
(Down, down) You feel close, even though you’re farther
(Flash flood) I’m the shore and you’re the water, you’re the water
(Swept away) Heavenly Father
(Down, down) You feel close, even though you’re farther
(Flash flood) I’m the shore and you’re the water, you’re the water
I’m at a loss
Flash flood and you were swept away
I’m at a loss
Losing you was a swift decay
I’m at a loss
And it’s been low, low tide
I’m at a loss since they took you away
Not sure I believe in ghosts
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Beer and a buddy. Hot peppers in his bloody
James took his medicine at the bar
His favorite hair of the dog
Was good old holiday eggnog
And day after day, months into years
Oh man, I must've seen him drink 7 thousand beers
And he used to joke about his sweat
Tasting like Coors Light
And each night would cue
The dimming of the house lights
That's when he’d stand up and deliver
Heartfelt monologues to anyone who'd listen
‘Til the night tilted & the barlights began to glisten
What are you running from, James?
Lacing the blood in your veins
Morning or evening, the pain's the same
Lie to the mirror, your truth remains
Daylight savings and James is falling backwards
An extra hour of navigating the hazards
A penny saved is an hour earned
His dwindling circle of friends,
They're rightfully concerned
He'd begin most toasts with a wink
And then a ceremonial clink
He'd clear his throat and declare:
"Better the devil you know"
And maybe it was all for show
But even so, the damage was real
The last time I saw him he was crying at the funeral
Awww, he had a heart of gold
Even broken he was beautiful
What are you running from, James?
Lacing the blood in your veins
Morning or evening, the pain's the same
Lie to the mirror, your truth remains
Dancing in the dark with
Dancing in the dark with the devil you know
The devil you know
Before he was hollowed
By those blotto blackouts
Before the decades got swallowed
Before the bailouts and washouts
The nights James recalled feeling most alive
He was dancing in crowded clubs
Under the pulsing sound of
Disco systems in the dark
Turned up to 11
It felt like heaven
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First time, long time
Big fan of the show
I just called to let you know
That I'm letting go
Before I leave,
Could you validate this ticket?
A stamp to prove that I was here
And left a tiny mark
Knocked down
Tenth round
I’m sparring myself
Eight count
Watch out
I’m scarring myself
Lorem ipsum
Playing possum
Devoid of meaning
Misbegotten
First time, long time
Big fan of the show
I just called to let you know
That I'm letting go
Imposter syndrome
Everywhere I ever go
If I could prove myself
I'd improve myself
I’ve always been my greatest foe
Knocked down
Tenth round
Eight count
Watch out
Lorem ipsum
Playing possum
Devoid of meaning
Misbegotten
Lorem ipsum
Playing possum
Devoid of meaning
I feel forgotten
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11. |
Paper Thin
03:02
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Yeah, I'd been going through a rough patch
But on the final day of the year
Under the Sangre de Cristos
The air was crisp and clear
Those whitecaps were majestic
I was walking on tiptoes
A clarity came over me
I was open and exposed
Everything was bigger than me
And taller than I'd ever be
As far as my eyes could see
I felt invisible, floating on the breeze
I know this feeling will eventually pass
Always terrible with my first drafts
But in the moment
I felt sun splashed
Tiny in a world so vast
I am so paper thin
That a strong gust of wind might send me
Spinning and skimming
And eventually I'll sink within
It'll end me
But not today
Oh, not today
Oh, not today
This is not the day
That'll end me
I'm at ease!
And the captain,
It is not something that I have to be
And if I’m lost at sea
Well then that's alright
Even if we lose the light
And for once in my life
I'm at ease
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